Provision

 

 

I have a Provider.  I need not worry, I need not stress.  I can let go of any old habit that spurs me to act on my own behalf to fight or fend for myself.  Don’t get me wrong now, this story is not to be mistaken for a tale of passively letting life walk all over me.  This maybe a story about the benefits of faith muscles being strengthened and or affirmation that my heavenly Papa believes in me and knows my heart, or just simply draws attention to Himself.  I was fired from a job this week, the first time ever in my life to experience being let go from a job.  I have a have a long history of working hard.  So much so that at a young age workaholism, has been one of my experiences.  If you are familiar with workaholism, then you know that sometimes ones identity can get wrapped up in work.  I am so glad this was not in play for me this week and that season had already passed of learning to distinguish myself, who I am in Christ, was separate from what I do for work, that my work did not determine my worth as a human being.  Without this lesson, I would have been in a tougher position this week.

 I had been anticipating the position coming to an end for some time.  I had been sticking up for myself, and not being affirmed nor protected, but remaining true to my beliefs, I continued on, and had recently stuck up for a client.  Just a few weeks ago, I also hesitantly conveyed my suspicions of dangerous behavior by a colleague, with a higher, I will call it, status, then I.  I was not really surprised this week when I was informed I would be out of a job.  I had already made arrangements for a temporary position to meet some financial goals.  I was cool, calm and collective, stated my case, shook some hands and packed my stuff up and walked out the door.  The dilemma was that I had just purchased a new car the previous Sunday in order to work for the temporary positon that I had mentioned.  I went straight back to the car dealer.  I walked in, showed them my paper work, and in a letdown of tears expressed that I had just lost my job, and there was no way I would be able to afford the new car.  The car salesman and the supervisor were compassionate, took a look at my paper work and ushered me into the back office.  They notified me that I would get my car back without any difficulty, but not only that, another manager appeared and said that “it gets better” and continues on to tell me that they replaced my radiator with a new one, fixed my window, changed my oil and detailed the car, as tears continue to flood down the well-worn path on my face them man said to me, “ I don’t even know how you got it here” referring to my old car with a dying radiator.  I just kept saying thank you as a cried all the way back to my newly repaired car, that I could now use for work.  As I left the car lot, I continued to affirm my trust in my Lord.  I pull up to my next destination that I go to every week to volunteer with kids and relax by doing art, I check my voice mail and there was a lady in the message saying she had looked over my resume’ that someone sent her and wanted to know if I was interested in a job position.  I called the woman back right away and noted it was perfect timing and right on par with my line of work.  She asked me what would work for my schedule to come in for an interview.  My schedule?  I said, "What would work for you?" (Wait stop.  Didn’t I just loose a job an hour and a half ago?) We scheduled the interview 48 hours later and I was offered the positon right on the spot!  What a delivery!  His timing is more than I can understand.  Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life. He goes before me, He makes a way.

The greatest part of this miracle is that there is no bitterness in my heart.  For an innate grudge holder since early, early child hood, this my friends is nothing short of a miracle.  I ask Him to come into my heart and make a home, creating it clean, renewing my spirit.  It is not that I did not have tears of sorrow, because it was a loss, but only for a night.  Joy certainly came in the morning.  I ask Him, again and again, to continue to grow me up in Him.  My God delivers, His promises are true.  Great is His faithfulness.  He will never leave me nor forsake me.  No one could ever convince me otherwise, my life story is too full of His work in me, I just can’t forget it, He provides!  I will keep abiding in Him no matter what.